Guan.

Guan

Guan Jin Yao!

FURTHER TRIGO - MATH.

FURTHER TRIGO - MATH.

FURTHER TRIGO - MATH.

Oh yeah. So they pulled me out of the GOH contingent again.

Yay. Treat your uniform with respect. Yay. Love your country. Yay. Be loyal to your nation.

Yah so? You mean the CIs care ah?

I read donno where/somewhere/anywhere about this, "Everyone is talented in one way or another. But if a dog spends all its time trying to fly, it will always think that it is stupid."

If some people achieve with talent, then I say I achieve with hardwork. Sheer hardwork. I don't have a niche area. Maybe I would never find one. But what made me here was more hardwork than anything else.

It's my bloody second time using a m16 in my life.

SI so? SI doesnt mean anything. SI only means that you care. But they don't even care whether you care or not.

If I could write a letter to HQ, it would be something like this:

I refer to your decision to remove the Prize Recipients for National Police Day Parade 2007 on 22 March 2007.

...would like to express my utter disappointment... irresponsible decisions that have caused disappointment and the lost of interest ...

... does not acknowledge the cadets who have been putting in so much effort to run the show in the background of these 18 Gold NPCC Units ... certainly not reflective of ...

And so on.

Then if they don't care, why should I care?

Okay now I'm finally in the main contingent. First time doing drills with the actual m16 rifles. Didn't know they were that heavy man o.O

In light of the sudden influx of tags, I shall post my response in my blog entry (:

Felix: Huh what 'wb looks like siao?' The 'b' thing was accidental lah.

ALICIA: WENBO=PEIQI. Eh don't you think they look damn alike. ahahah. At least in that picture. I don't even know who peiqi is or heard of her name before. lol.

yiding: realist theory for you.

Hui Shan: haha. that bus damn cool right! I was sitting at the 'bar' thing, and staring at that guy in the poster.

Eld: Thanks!

Jieyang: Haha thanks xD

lihui: thanks!

Zhaobo: thanks! and my phy practical leh? lol.

nicole: helloo! wenbo's pic? Yea it's amusing, quite.

lincoln: lol thanks! my friends very supportive meh? ahaha.

wenwei: thanks!

Hh-: liuqian got best chinese teacher award? Lol. Why so random. Yah gd luck for class performance.

Marcus: thanks!

Weekian: YES. 2D owns (: I'm so proud of 2d, though sometimes the things we do are really dumb. like sunshuo and zhouboxun fighting. and playing pokemon cards. -.- lol

Jiawei: some supportive friends dont show it? hmm, actually what's the point of being supportive and not showing it -.- lol. not to be critical, but yah what! haha

I screwed my math today. I think this is one of the few tests that I felt the worst.

Haha, at one point I wasn't even thinking about maths anymore. I started to think why I was unable to make time to study, why I was in that blur, lack-of-sleep state of mind when doing th test, why I was so not prepared for the tests, why I was unable to do revisions.

I think I'm getting myself involved in too much work. And I'm feeling it, as always.

"All your life you will be complaining that you are involved in too much work." That's what you say.

But most of the times we do not comply with what we say. We say, but we don't do. Because we are deluded in the fact that we are still telling ourselves 'I still can cope with it lah' in the sub-conscious mind. You still don't want to give things up. Not just yet.

But the signs are clearer than ever before. As least they wake me up, somehow.

I'm going to put more efforts in my studies. I seriously don't want to screw them. The fear of screwing them is seriously creeping into me.

Plus plus, I must learn to treasure relationships. I seriously value them, for they are things in life that has gave me the strength to carry on till even now. My family has been really supportive. Lydia has been really supportive. Relationships - very important.

Friendship too lah. Though my friends generally not very supportive. Awww i'm anti social. Lol.

Yeah. Learn to let things go. Learn to treasure things.

And pray that I can pull through this.

Random pictures.

Okay here is one of wenbo. Don't you think he looks like the girl on the left in the banner? Lol.

Here's one of xujianfen and wangwanyi fighting for taxi.

And you'll never walk alone though it has no link to liverpool AT ALL.

That's all.

I float around blogs, wikipedia and youtube.

Hahaha.

Heck the workload.

Ohh i had the 双文化论文研讨会 at 德明 high 哦.

The 周教授 was rather good. The students' 论文s okay okay lah.

Then I went to have lunch with a group of 初一 after jason boey zhangwenbo guodan yiding and gang all ran away, leaving me to join yinghao and his 初一 bsp camp friends.

双文化精英哦。

Wah sian my guitar string broke. And I don't know how to restring -.-

There are now 3 SIs as GOH boy contingent reserves!

Yay! NPCC HQ owns big time.

Ask us to go there train so many weeks.

1,2,3,4,5,6,7(turn) bang. SMILE SMILEEE. Salute Salute.

Now I feel like a retard to train so hard.

Now you tell us you don't need us anymore. Ask our principals to collect e prize.

YAY. NPCC HQ owns.

No more prize recipients. Throw us all in GOH.

And we cannot even get into main contingent.

Oh so this is how you treat the 18 gold units who have put in so much effort to get the award.

How ironic isn't it?

HQ owns lah.

Aphelion Nite. Coolio stuff. Success. Achievements. WE come together and celebrate as one. Like yayness.

Classroom duties. Scoldings. WE try to avoid them as much as possible, as individuals.

How sad is this?

In the past, I would stay back in class to clean up. Sometimes, there are some other people who care like Li Chan, who is always quiet but working silently. That was in Secondary 1 and 2. In Secondary 3 and 4, I was more busy with my work - so mentally exhausted about school work and stuff. I contributed less. I did not do a part as often, did not commit myself as much. At least I was still bothered to do the basics of the 'Classroom Duty'. I did not had time to stay back every other day to clean the classroom.

How many people are really for the class? Have feelings for it? I wouldn't dare to criticise anyone because I'm in no position to do so. I'm not that person who puts in 110% for my class in Sec 1 & 2 anymore. Maybe just 100% now.

I shouldn't critcise but I can praise. People who I can feel care about the class. Timothy Iype. Jia Hong. Dominic. I feel Yi Ding is becoming one too.

I don't if there are any others. But they are the ones who I feel that they CARE. I have seen Timothy stayed back in class to clean the classroom all by himself. Seldom the Timothy you see in class, but the very true person within.

Praises and critics. I just hope that our class can bear through this regime for the next 3 terms with no other internal conflicts and issues that will work against us. Smooth sailing 3 terms and we are all off to JC.

Today. NPCC HQ sacked all the prize recipients for NPDP.

I have nothing to say lah. All of a sudden, my hopes of wearing No. 1 on a parade day crumbled.

First time eh. FIRST TIME EH.

Sian.

Today. I boarded this nokia-sponsored 156 bus which had a rather unique design.













Today.

How eventful.

RANDOM QUIZ FROM JONQUEK

I WANT: to enjoy life (:
I HATE: being hesitant about things. my english proficiency level.
I MISS: lydia (: ahaha xD
I HEAR: 多爱我一天 - Energy
I REGRET: being hesitant.
I LIKE: things to go smoothly.
I DANCE: during aphelion night. when i'm on a high, but they r totally random moves. lol.
I SING: every now and then. lol, not gd though.
I SHOULD: do as my heart tells me so.

[WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF...]

RYAN: a sec 3 junior from np.
DOUG: douglas. PANG PANG PANG.
JOHN: some sec3 by the name of john yeo. jon yeo. or something lah.
SCOTT: scott parker. isit? lol i dont know. some random soccer player.
KENNY: kenneth tan. ahah, p6 classmate.

[IN THE LAST FEW DAYS, HAVE YOU...]

CRIED? err no.
HELPED SOMEONE? yeah.
GOTTEN SICK? no.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? nah.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? with family last sun (:
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yes (:
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? uhh yes.
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? nahh. my england too noob for it -.-
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? my parents r very understanding and supportive (:

[WOULD YOU EVER...]

1. EAT A BUG? err no.
2. BUNGEE JUMP? yeah. one day.
3. HANG GLIDE? yaaa.
4. KILL SOMEONE? MIGHT DO SO. mwhahah.
7. WALK ON HOT COALS? hope not.
8. GO OUT TO EAT WITH A COMPLETE STRANGER? yea maybe.
9. GO OUT W/ SOMEONE FOR THEIR REPUTATION? willingly? no.
10.BE A VEGETARIAN? hah might. i always though the fishes you see in the market look very ke lian.
12. PURPOSELY HURT SOMEONE? i dont hurt people. i KILL.
14. RUN A RED LIGHT? err. pedestrian crossing (:
15. WOULD YOU DYE YOUR HAIR BLUE? noo. i wldnt want to dye my hair.
17. MAKE SOME ONE CRY? maybe ):
19. STAY UP ALL THROUGH THE NIGHT? did so many times alr lah -.-

[THE LAST PERSON WHO...]

1. SLEPT ON THE SAME BED WITH YOU? probably some camp thing. but then again, we dont sleep on beds during camp. so i dont know.
2. SAW YOU CRY? tears in eyes not counted ah. parents during my great-grandma's funeral =(
3. YOU SAW CRY? hmm. tears in eye not counted ahhh. dont rmb.
4. WENT TO THE MOVIES WITH? lydia (:
5. WENT TO DINNER/LUNCH WITH? family
6. THAT CALLED YOU ON THE PHONE: chengkoon.
7. THAT YOU CALLED ON THE PHONE: mum.
8. TEXT YOU: wenwei. ahaha to ask me if he shld wear no.1 uniform for npdp 2mro.
9. MADE YOU LAUGH: in sch lah. donno which guy.

[DO YOU PREFER]

1. FLOWERS OR CANDY? neither and both. no opinions.
2. GREY OR BLACK? black.
3. COLOUR OR BLACK? black.
5. SUNRISE OR SUNSET? sunset.
6. STAYING UP LATE OR WAKING UP EARLY? staying up late lah. duh.

Signing the declerations that the actual ASEAN states will NEVER EVER sign.

Does it even matter?

Hahahaha. I don't know what made me type this.

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Random pictures.

You should try looking at everything from a inverted point of view. Like do a handstand and look at sceneries. It feels very different.

Nothing much. Just some softtoys I saw at actioncity.

Lesson time.

Physics

Chemistry

English

Biology

Aphelion Nite '07.

Class CD

Preparation

The Night.

Aphelion Sec 4s rawked.

Sec 1,2,3 stoning like what. Oh yah, like stones. -.-

I bet they were all too distracted by the stnicks.

Nvm. Sec 4 aphelion owns you. Lol