Hello world! Long time since I last blogged. Well well, I have been seeing a lot of things happening in school these days. I miss high school. Duh, like totally. Not so much things to think about back then, more carefree and everything. HAHA. Oh wells oh wells.
Sometimes you just poke fun at things happening around in school, trying to entertain yourself a little in this stifling envrionment. You seen enough for certain things in school that you want to esacpe/ignore from them.
Many things that you do not want to happen still happened.
You wonder why it seems that everyone is power-hungry. Where the word 'portfolio' simply keep reappearing everywhere. Join council because of portfolio. Do this because of portfolio. Do that because of portfolio. You question where is the passion and belief that drives people to commit into what they are doing. Or are they simply doing it for their own purpose? You seek an answer, but you don't find any.
You wonder why it seems that everyone is behind a facade. To be one person in front of a person and to be another in front of another. I guess it's alright to be nice and, to not offend a person, you might just smile and walk away instead of bitching about him/her. But adopting a completely different attitude and character towards a similar issue in front of different people is just too much, too fake for us to take. Take pride in what you say, say what you really mean and simply be yourself, regardless of who you're dealing with.
You wonder why it seems that everyone is doing everything with motives in mind. That every action carried out by anyone is simply part of a bigger master plan behind the scene. Doing this because of a reason. Doing that because of a reason. You wonder why can't everyone be natural with one another.
You wonder why is there a need to analyse every single thing - to the point where you find it excessive. Why does everything that someone does have to be because of a motive? Everything has become so artificial, so fake. You become so seemingly lost in this artificial world. Do as your beliefs tell you to. Do whatever you like to do. Do what you think is right.
You wonder why people always think that they know everything; to believe that they know the entire truth when they only know of one side of the story. People tend to make generalisations and pass judgements too easily. They based it on what they know of, even when what they know is simply insufficient and not the complete picture. You, being able to see from an alternte perspective, witness the ongoings and becomes extremely unhappy and feels that an injustice has to be addressed. However, the worst thing is that most people tend to ignore your viewpoints and believe that only what they think is correct. It always feels better to think that you're right than be pointed out wrong. Sometimes, they try to brainwash what they think into those around them. They attempt to dictate you. So, yeah.
You wonder why people think so highly of themsleves. You wonder why people are so self-centered. You wonder you wonder....
Probably just pointed out many things I dislike about jc. Or maybe (and) the society. This sucks.
I'm who I am. I never changed. Perhaps my perspectives may have widen, my intellects may have been stretched but my personality and beliefs remain. I once took a look what i blogged when i was in sec 1 and I find myself sounding entirely the same. It's just that thing in me. HAHA.
And I dont understand why everyone thinks/is afraid that i'm not team player hah. I'm taking making presentations into my own hands because i just like doing powerpoints. I enjoy the process. HAHA. It's just about playing to each other's strengths. Only then we can bring out the best in a group. Haha, I dont understand why la. Seriously. I think I tend to be fierce at times, tends to take things into control myself, am a last-minute worker and chiong like a mad person. But it's just not the truth. I dont understand why people see me in that light. Probably they all do not know me enough. I have worked with countless of groups for projects before.
It's not making sarcastic comments and acting fierce. It's just a free-for-all discussion about issues. It's about saying what you feel and discussing. Sharing our ideas and our perspectives at things, and convincing one another why my perspective stands albeit sounding extremely critical in the process. At the end of the day, we are not attacking each other's ideas just for the sake of doing so and we all understand it's just a discussion. Probably just smile and laugh over it, yeah.
Today's a bad day. Things dont seem to go well. Unsettled thoughts ran through my mind. To face all these and...
Feeling all alone. ):
Sunday, April 20 3:17 PM
`jon neo. ★ says :
What lies behind you
Life has been really boring. Like this boring.
There has been nothing interesting happening for the past week in school. Perhaps gp compo test last mon, rushing for PI like a mad man on thurs and fri. More people would have noticed me doing the latter 'cause I would simply be at the fishtank/back of lt/com lab/class bench/anywhese else with my laptop, trying to do some work. When the rest of the world thought i was virtual business challenge-ing. Not the best of experience though, I ended like a zombie on fri though I stayed in school till 9(?)pm to laze around. I don't exactly remember.
Life has been that boring. Well well, athena fac outing on saturday night, yet another opportunity for us to chill out. Spent most of the time walking about, trying to have a chat with people and stuff. And having fun on my own but I was kinda out of place sometimes. Lala nvmnvm.
All that hype about fac comm. About a month ago, it was council. Now it's fac comm. For all I hope Athena gets a good fac comm, I really don't care whether I get in or not. I will give it a shot and prove my worth, if you appreciate. But if it's going be a better fac comm without me, then let it be. (:
Sometimes it's interesting to question yourself why. Review what you have chosen and then decide on what you're going to do next.
Randoming, but the view from the middle of the netball court at night is quite pretty. Really.
I cant freaking do a proper side chair, head stand, turtle, nike, pike, freezes transition, swipes, backspin, ahhhh whatever la. I freaking suck. I'm just gonna practise at my own pace. If dance is about expression, then there's no point in chionging anyway. Just do whatever I like man, !$%^&*@
Doh-ray-mee-far-sou-laa-tee-toe. Apple banana watermelon honeydew.
What do I have to do now. Oh yeah, catch up with all the lectures I missed while I was doing my PI. But that means copying them over during breaks tmr.
For now, slack.
Tag replies
labbit: yeah i found it alr (: mutton: i told you alr what ._. Chiki: hahaha i didnt really mug la, just randoming lol yujie: yeah hi. HAHA, what's up bro. Daph: HELLOOO! :D haven't heard from you for a long long long while Yenhui: thankyou (: HAHA, long time no see anwyay!
Saturday, April 12 6:35 PM
`jon neo. ★ says :
The demand curve shifts right
...causing the graph to translate 3 units in the positive-y direction. Therefore, price equilibrum rises and quantity demanded drop. This results in the permanent-dipole permanent-dipole interaction between the graphs y=x and y=x². The electrostatic attraction between the two graphs is very strong and a lot of energy is needed to overcome the force.
Hey you! Haha sorry for not blogging anything proper for the past 10 days or so. Anyway I found my pencil case :D Somehow it was left at the class bench but I dont rmb taking it out at all, maybe... HAHA nvm. Conclusion, I found it and the end. So yay.
(1) Had gp compo test and math test this wk. (2) Freaking screwed my PI, I haven't found a topic to work on yet; believe it or not. (3) Math lecture test which makes up like 10% of the whole yr's grade is on mon. (4) Project work groupings out as well, I guess my group's okay we have all the hardworking people (I think, lol). That's about all for the academic side, yeah.
Life-wise, if there's such a phrase, is quite okay bah. Had a few moments with badminton, something which I barely touched since primary 6; it was rather fun. Haven't been breaking that much this week, I guess I have to rest sometimes, too much injuries here and there on me. Felt really low when the PI got rejected, sorry but I couldn't help it. But guess I'm okay now.
The world's getting more complicated. Perhaps not. Let me change it. I'm coming to realisation on how complicated the world is. Let's see. Everyone has their targets, to achieve them through different means. You can call it creating opportunities but I choose not to believe so. (:
I'm stubborn. I stand by what I believe in. I choose to be myself for who I am. If you appreciate me, then thank you. If you don't, then I can't do anything about it. There's no right or wrong or black or white in this world anyway. It's simply a matter of perspective.
Come on, I intend to be able to do airflares in my reality. (HAHA. This is for you, tag.)
Sit down and think about how you can influence people. In a positive way.
Tag replies Chiki: haha lol, chem spa's next wk. so screwed zzomg :O LOL, if that photo i take one then :D chiewlin: HAHA yeah, thanks (: the person with indian father plus 1/2 eurasian-1/2 chinese mother. HAHA labbit: yeah fts is in nyjc laaa sq: bboy ftw :D chit: thanksthanks (: tieren: life has no balls :O HAAH thanks mj: lol thanks, ATHENAA FAC COMMMM :D weekian: yeah i'm doing.. or 'doing'. HAHA i signed up but i dont intend to hand in the booklet anytime soon, we have till 25 years old anyway (: found e pencil case btw :D Hh-: i found my pencil case alr, haha yeah sometimes it's hard to let go certain things that you have lost. jiahong: YEAH FOUND :D liuhao: lol thanksthanks (: xyy: yeah lost and, erm found. haha thanks pp: yeah man, found it back alr man man. HAHA, thanks (man) zhixin: HELLO! :D how's life! hoho, haven't heard from you for a long long while
Friday, April 4 11:19 PM
`jon neo. ★ says :
ANYONE SEEN MY BILLABONG PENCIL CASE?
LT3? Salt studio? Anywhere?
There are like a ton of g2 pens with different colours inside, calculator with my name on it, random note from a group which was campaigning for council which has my name,
etcetcetc.
I really really really need it back. ): ):
it's more than the money of getting a new one. ):
HELP ME KEEP A LOOK OUT, PLEASE.
IF YOU HAPPEN TO HAVE ANY NEWS ABOUT A RANDOM BILLBAONG PENCIL CASE YOU SAW ANYWHERE IN SCHOOL, PLEASE INFORM ME.
A MILLION THANKS.
Wednesday, April 2 10:43 PM
`jon neo. ★ says :
8:52 PM
`jon neo. ★ says :
What we are all looking out for
A little inspiration.
A great deal of determination.
An opportunity to come by.
And an alternate perceptive, albeit not the most pleasing of things to hear.
Let's talk about self-belief.
Not that I'm someone who has so much of belief in myself, but I have seen enough these days to want to pen these thoughts down somewhere. Perhaps on this blog.
I guess being in a tertiary institution brings you just one more step nearer to the society out there. In any populated places there are going to be all types of people doing all kinds of stuff. That's probably how social dynamics work. Let's just admit you can never change it.
There is going to be people who are going to say things you don't want to hear. There is going to be people out there who just want to put you down. There is going to be people offering you their take at issues. There is going to be people doing this and that.
That's how it works.
There is no need to complain, worry, emo or whatsoever 'cause it's never ever going to help. There may be people out there to console you but... (okay this is an extremely bias and personal opinion) nobody is going to be there for you forever.
You gotta learn how to hold the ground on your own. You have to be strong. Be rational. Think through what has been going on. Take what you think is right, ignore what you think is rubbish and..move on. the end. full stop.
That's the way to live in the world today.
Good luck with life, everyone. (:
Haha sorry for sounding rather erm (rather fierce?) just now, but that's my take on life and it probably shows how sadded i am as a person.
Failed a chem test today, uh i got like 40% for that one. (Is that a subpass?) Lol screwed up my mock chem spa but yeah. It's only a MOCK chem spa, so I shouldn't complain that much. And I'm getting math back tmr I think. Have no ideas about PI though I understand the requirements of the topics rather well now. Just have to wait for my brain to come up with something that is good enough now.
That's school for me. Hallelujah, HAHA.
Sometimes life gets so pathetic for reasons that you don't know and I don't want to say, I really feel like laughing at myself and... )':
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I'm who I am. I never changed. Perhaps my perspectives may have widen, my intellects may have been stretched but my personality and beliefs remain. I once took a look what i blogged when i was in sec 1 and I find myself sounding entirely the same. It's just that thing in me. HAHA.
Life has been really boring. Like this boring.
