Just came back from Fac Comm camp at Kulai, Malaysia yesterday. Yet, all I feel like blogging about is about bsp camp '07.
Haha, somehow the thing that took place one year and one day ago just beats the one that took place one day ago. Not that I hated the fac comm one, but bsp camp just holds too much memories for me ):
I guess I didn't really have time to emo at Kulai, either being busy with stuff or too tired and was knocked out. But I really really missed it ): I really really wanted to go back, rahhhh.
The hall. The netball court. The uber long track/pathway between hostel and netball court. The canteen. The facs. The OT. The participants. The many-pages-long action plan. The station games. Everyone and everything.
Perhaps just for that one moment to relive the memories.
But it was just too late. ):
Sometimes reality just has to make fun of you; for the only helpless thing that can be done is to accept it and move on
Monday, May 26 I'M BLOGGING FROM A SBS BUS N-A-O NOW, HAHAHA
Okay I'm just high :D But it's trueeee, i'm on a bus now (:
Just spent the whole of today outside, going about singapore trying to find a place to mug in and only manage to complate 3/4 of a math tutorial when i finally started doing so.
Oh wells, I'm just damn high now because I can access the net from a bus :D
Quite dumb, but yeahhh, hoho! http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/05/im-blogging-from-sbs-bus-n-o-now-hahaha.html - 5:54 PM
Sunday, May 25
http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/05/blog-post_25.html - 3:03 AM
I want to return to the past ):
The other day I went back to high school to return a school blazer.
There's something different about high school.
It just feels different. There's this heartwarming feeling.
And I miss it.
):
Raaahhh. I want to be a kid again. ):
http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/05/i-want-to-return-to-past-other-day-i.html - 12:48 AM
Saturday, May 24
Answers
We question too much. We don't think about answers.
We talk too much. We don't listen.
Once again reality has proven to me that do not judge a book by its cover.
There's just something more to everything else you see.
It's really nice to chat with some friends who I haven't talked to since a long long time. Checking out how life and everything has been and talking about stuff. Oh wells. It always feels good to catch up with your friends (:
It's probably right to say that the kind of environment in college somehow just makes you ponder about future and life, a lot.
Dance is much of an escape to all the rubbish I face in school. Though, sometimes, it may be one that contributes to the rubbish as well.
When you feel happy, dance. When you feel irritated, dance. When you feel moody, dance. When you have nothing better to do, dance.
We tend to hold on to things which we create and stuff we are familiar with. We tend to be selfish. We don't want others to have them as well. We don't want to share. We try to hard holding on to everything.
The problem with doing so is that, when you hold on to the past, it's difficult to move on to the future. When you do so, you continue to live in the past. The things that you try so hard to hold on always tend to end up eluding you.
Sometimes, it's just about letting things come and go.
That aside, I did this handwriting personality quiz which turns out to be rather accurate - from my perspective.
Jonathan uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.
The circumstances when Jonathan does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.
Jonathan will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.
Jonathan is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Jonathan doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Jonathan will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!
In reference to Jonathan's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Jonathan slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.
He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Jonathan can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Jonathan's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Jonathan that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Jonathan also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Jonathan is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Jonathan's self-concept is artificially low. Jonathan will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Jonathan to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Jonathan is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
Jonathan is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. He works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps him from success. Often, Jonathan changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes he changes because he feels he needs a differentchallenge. Jonathan feels dejected. This feeling relates to his failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. He must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from him or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change his life.
Jonathan is selective when picking friends. He does not trust everyone. He has a select group of people that are truly close to him, usually two or three. He is careful when choosing his inner circle of friends. Jonathan has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. He lets new people into his circle of friends. He uses his imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Jonathan has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Jonathan fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Jonathan has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Jonathan seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Jonathan seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.
Haha, how much of me is that, you judge.
Tag replies
Chiki: yeahh having fun, lol. athena ftw :D sq: haha yeahh, just have fun bboying (: mutton: yes 大大? HAHA Jon: HAHA ironmann ftww xyy: what diao post, lol ck: haha easy to way, hard to do. and forever is a big word, dont anyhow use. haha oonbeng: heh, lax la. life has to go on jh: heh thanks! jiayou for jc too xin hui: thanks for coming eh! we should have bsp outing reallyyy soon min: heh thanks! weekian: ^^ dora: thanks thanks! elson: thaaanks ee elson! Lix: thanks! Hh-: ;D liping: lalala (: hoho yay all MADers :D :D jiahong: heh thanks! shake ftww
http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/05/dance-is-only-escape-its-really-nice-to.html - 1:00 AM
Sunday, May 18
Dance night '08 - Made to break
Oh my, I totally <3 all the mad breakers :D
Dao the screw ups, dao the failed moves, dao the stage fright.
We put in our best, we had fun on stage and the audience witnessed our performance.
The world is selfish. Everyone just freaking care about themselves.
The world doesn't freaking need organisations. Organisations are structures. Cold, dead structures.
The world needs people who know, understand and care what they are doing, those who really bother, those who really have the drive, those who really have the willingness to commit. Not those who care about their payrise, promotions, designations or their awards at the end of the day.
Organisations without such people are crap. Organisations are probably just set up to manage people who are unable to work in that manner by those who seek to sustain their cause. Worse still, what's a organisation without a structure? An objective and vision? Worse than trash.
That's probably why we are forever complaining about certain organisations and structures. It is almost impossible to get one such organisation filled entirely with these type of people.
You know sometimes it's this internal struggle that you are just dying to fight within. You want to do so much but you know there is a limit to it. You know that something is wrong but you have no power/are of no ability to do anything about it. That's probably the worst feeling you can get.
And that's what I'm feeling right now. 2 times of it.
People judge. But how many understand? We judge superficially. We all like to judge - it's easy. To criticize, be sarcastic, crack jokes and have a big laugh about it. Do you even know what we're judging? Do you ever understand what's going on? Who are you to judge if you don't even know what you're judging?
It's probably time to wake up.
And the world remains in slumber. http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/05/watcha-feeling-world-is-selfish.html - 11:58 PM
Friday, May 9
But each gate will open another
I haven't been blogging as much. A lot of picture-tells-a-thousand-words blogging 'cause I was simply lazy to type. But you get the point all the same, don't you? It's nice to know that people read what you write and appreciate them. A pretty cool avenue for you to share you believe in.
School's uhh the same as it was. Dance Nite is approaching so training is more meng now. I don't feel any extra pressure to perform though. Not even nervous about it. Probably 'cause I'm not really thinking about doing the performance for whoever to see. It's more of like dancing for myself now. It's about your expression, yo.
Live with purpose and belief. Simply do what you think is right.
In that way, you wouldn't lose that sense of direction. It's rubbish when you say achievement are nothing. And it's simply clique to say that it's not everything. In fact, I guess achievement is just another thing. Achievements is simply a result, a by-product of your belief. Probably a more tangible testimony to what you have to say about your life. A lack of achievement does mean something but it doesn't say everything. It's either you have yet to find a purpose or a belief or you have not been putting enough effort to realise it.
Stupid things always happen but life has to go on. In any way, it's just important that the purpose and belief is not lost. Things will come and go. Belief and spirit always stays.
At the end of the day, it's about being who you are, sticking to what you believe in and fulfilling that purpose.
Being good is one thing. Being humble is another.
They don't always come in a single package and I have seen enough. I shan't elaborate but I think you get it.
And why is it so difficult to accept that there are some individuals who are better than others in a certain area?
Go ahead and laugh at the marvels of retardness.
It's easy to be happy sometimes.
Tag replies
weekian: hohohoho
tieren: heh thanks (: just penning down my thoughts about life hoho
not yipyang: i dont watch naruto/bleach/jap anime and manga. so what the yipyang is hatakiri.
liping: haha thanks thanks (: friesfriesfries FTS: tag seeeen. it's good to 'wonder' kaze: hoho styleee! it's about your expression hoho Lix: heh thanks (: weekian: where?? dre: haha yeahh man, train hard hoho tieren: thanks :D styleee. Hh-: improvement doesnt come naturally :X but anyway, just freaking dance. mj: 下来打地板,下来打地板,下来打地板 Chiki: fac comm election was !#$^& lame la guodan: haha, lol ._. yiding: life is uhh saddd ._. cant help it lalala pohting: hello mum! thanks mum :D wenshi: haha thanks, yeah la, eat my brain la -.- oonbeng: thanks (:
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In reference to Jonathan's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Jonathan slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.
Jonathan's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Jonathan that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Jonathan also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Jonathan is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Jonathan's self-concept is artificially low. Jonathan will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Jonathan to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Jonathan is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Jonathan has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Jonathan fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Jonathan has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Jonathan seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Jonathan seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.
I haven't been blogging as much. A lot of picture-tells-a-thousand-words blogging 'cause I was simply lazy to type. But you get the point all the same, don't you? It's nice to know that people read what you write and appreciate them. A pretty cool avenue for you to share you believe in.
