Lifedocumentary

Monday, June 30

Mood's like hitting rock bottom

Sian. I don't know why today totally not in the mood to do anything.

Not even to dance.

My body feels damn screwed, twisted and everything. My thumb's hurting and my back is aching. Roarrrr.

Inspire is like this friday, saturday. The crowd response seems damn bad. Everyone's like having a lot of tickets to sell themselves. I have a lot to go. Not a very good news. :X

Lessons today are all waste of time.

Pw. Pub IC. Post-blocks event. Mad. I have like 101 things to do but only 101 seconds.

Damn. This sucks.

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/moods-like-hitting-rock-bottom-sian.html - 11:07 PM

Oh no, it's school again ):

HAHA. Somehow I dont have a feeling that the lectures and tutorials are back. I don't have a feeling that the school is back. Totally not in the mood to study lah.

Rahhh. Half my room is in a mess from post-blocks mugging. Stacks of notes everywhere.

Plus a lot to do from all my commitments.

I better start work. Woohoo.

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/oh-no-its-school-again-haha.html - 11:07 PM

Saturday, June 28

!@$%^&*

Blocks are over. Results should be okay, except for chem. I think I will do like damn badly for chem. Gp, perhaps, the second worst subject. Econs, csc and math should be around average.

Anyway, it's over.

I just changed my template today. It's pretty cool. 'cause it doesn't even show up the post. Haha so I'm like typing this post for myself to see or something. Perhaps when I open up my blog again in the future.

Anyway, I hasn't been feeling good these days.

It's not really about the blocks though sometimes I get quite stressed up about it. Being a little retarded and having fun in my own world helps to alievate that. Oh wells, I'm just feeling this tinge of unhappiness hovering around me these few days. ):

Moodswings. HAHA.

But I think if anyone still doesn't know, the retardness of my acts and the state of highness I'm in are usually inversely proportionate to my mood.

It's like trying to make you laugh over yourself. Sometimes it's quite self-entertaining.

Talking about mad. I'm starting to feel lethargic about everything even when it's like just a start to our term. Restructuring is a easy word to say. It's not an easy to do. To set up the structure and lay the foundation of an organisation is an extremely difficult task. Uphill task ahead.

I feel more like completing the athena website once and for all. Start updating it online and get engaged in the rest of the faculty stuff I have to do.

Oh wells, this sucks.

Life is sad. ):

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/blocks-are-over.html - 1:17 AM

Monday, June 23

Econs is over.

I don't think I will do well.

Shouldn't screw up too badly 'cause I really bothered to study this time.

Just that I didn't have enough time to finish writing the essays. Not enough time to sort out my thoughts under exam conditions too.

Uhh, but at least I understand a lot about economic concepts now.

Every test is a learning experience that builds up to A levels. This is just another one.

The next time I take an econs test I will probably know what else to take note other than pure mugging.

Yay for econs. (:

Now it's GP tomorrow.

(Chemistry that I haven't started revising other than for chemical energetics. Csc which I haven't even started revising.)

Hallelujah.

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/econs-is-over.html - 8:14 PM

Sunday, June 22

Blocks is tomorrow.

June holidays is ending tomorrow.

I have a bad feeling about tomorrow.

I hope I don't flunk my econs tomorrow.

Tomorrow.

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/blocks-is-tomorrow.html - 10:34 PM

Thursday, June 12

Feeling ill (and out) but there's a lot to do.

): ): ):

Tag replies

jiahong: ahah what! you organise la, i'm quite dead alr .___.

yujie: haha no wonder this june feels so different. i just realise that point
Daph: haha hotcakes! heh, at downtown east one somemore!
lydia: haha thanks!

pohting: thanks mum :D
chiewlin: roarrrr ice cream! bloop. bloopbloop.
jin xiang: heh thanks, hello!
Lix: yeahh changed the banner, a simpler one. it's nicer i think :D
yiding: haha what old professor .___.
weekian: screwwwww blocks rahh
sq: ehh thanks, rahh blocks.
kaze: HAHA. !#$%^&*)(_
van: ehh no probs :D can blush more, it's quite cool HAHA
Chiki: screwww somemore rahhh
beng: heh thanks :D good luck too!

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/feeling-ill-and-out-today.html - 10:27 PM

Wednesday, June 11

There is this )))))))): feeling bothering me.

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/there-is-this-feeling-bothering-me.html - 11:11 PM

Monday, June 9

It's this never-ending journey

Aha, I don't know why I'm already feeling so tired when half the things hasn't even begun.

Whenever I'm at home, I have to stare at this list of icons on my desktop which pretty much reads out what I'm supposed to do this June holidays. There are 5 of them. Equally large-scale 'projects'.

Beside my screen, I have a calandar of June which marks out every activity I'm going for this holiday. And it tells me I'm 13 days away from blocks. According to schedule, I'm supposed to start on the 3rd subject. But in fact, I haven't really started on any.

There is this lethargic feeling, knowing you have a lot to do but you don't feel like doing anything.

I need to find my source of motivation. Hmmm, I thought I'm supposed to be rather self-motivated. Or at least appear to be. Haha, but self-motivation needs a source, an origin, somewhere or something. Yet, there seems to be nothing.

I have been living rather aimlessly. Haha, if you ask me to imagine what I will be like 10 years down the road now, I have no idea. If you asked me the same question last year, I will probably give you a vision, a mission and perhaps some core values. HAHA.

Are we all too young to contemplate about life? But 17 isn't young anymore.

Haha sorry for being retarded sometimes (heheh) to talk about scandals. It's just to self-entertain and have fun lah. Fine, I admit that sometimes I just have nothing better to do -.- It's really quite funny to see how people react; sweet to see whoever has crush on whoever or just to see their faces blush. Awwww, heheh :D So cute lah, HAHA :D Am really happy for whoever that gets together (:

Once bitten, twice shy, perhaps I have become oblivious to such stuff already. Or twice bitten, really shy now. I think I sound like someone who has turned gay or something. HAHAH, wth.

Falling in love is one thing; being in a relationship is another.

HAHA sometimes I really wonder why I just sound more real on the com. Roarrrr ):

Rahhh, I just spent another morning loading videos into com and blogging.

Screw the blocks ):

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/its-this-never-ending-journey-aha-i.html - 10:17 AM

Friday, June 6

Apologies to the rest of the world
'cause I have been sleeping 24 hrs non-stop since 11am yesterday :D

If you happened to see me awake/online, I'm most probably in a semi-conscious state. So, if I muttered any irrelevant stuff, please ignore.

Beside the point, I just find everything is moving at an extremely fast pace now. The 2nd week of June Holidays is coming to an end and I haven't freaking started mugging proper. I think I'm dead. Plus project work, which I have left stagnant for quite some time, is not really moving as well. Rahhh.

Work work work. Other than that, life has been rather interesting. Though I would say my last june holidays were probably better than this in terms of having fun. Random chalets, outings and stuff. Guess I'm staying out too much. Perhaps this june is more about knowing people, talking to people about life and stuff. Pretty cool as well, haha.

Sometimes I make the most cynical posts on my blog about life. Ignore them, please. Haha, I wasn't in the positive state of mind. I would not delete them since I posted them (no point trying to escape). Haha.

Oh wells, I have no time to do some thinking about life and stuff.

Just wanted to blog something. Have breakfast. Then continue with more work.

'Work is fun!'

Yay, exciting hours ahead! :D

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/apologies-to-rest-of-world-cause-i-have.html - 11:26 AM

Tuesday, June 3

There is something wrong with this world

In fact, I guess there are too many things which are wrong in this world. So much that these things are deemed to be correct instead. Oh wells.

You feel so helpless to watch things happen, knowing there is nothing you can do. That the things you do wouldn't even matter to anyone or anything. You get this feeling that you're forgotten, unneeded and not appreciated.

That's when I choose to be out of the picture.

And I hate judgement, though it needs to happen sometimes.

Rahhh.

Random rantings about the unhappiness of life.

Tag replies

kaze: heh i just found the pic somewhere on the net, i forgot where. lol
chit: dancedancedance (:
jiahong: hoho mad =O rahhh, bspcamp.
Zhuoxuan: yeahh long time since you tagged, helloooo patrickk.
Lix: yeahh pokemon!
gen: hoho what a small world we're in :D
weekian: lol see you singapore? hahaha, what! That was nothing lah, really.
chiewlin: we ended up at starbucks la, uhh i kind of wasted my day there.
Daph: what?! yes, it's difficult to find. Not happy is it? =O
pp: lol it's oveeeer!
mutton: haha get from me when i'm online lahh!
Hh-: Good to hear that, rahh.
liping: more roarrrs.
FTS: haha yeaaah, some time to be alone. lalala

http://lifedocumentary.blogspot.com/2008/06/there-is-something-wrong-with-this.html - 10:40 PM