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Tuesday, August 26
5:13 PM
 `jon neo. ★ says :
Monday, August 25
3:56 AM
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Tuesday, August 19
1:32 AM
`jon neo. ★ says :
Tonight.
I haven't been doing any work at all since I reached home.
There's this irony. I know that I have to chill a bit 'cause I'm being too tensed up, I can't even do my work properly. I get irritated and easily annoyed. So I have this pressure to relax and get over with this quickly so that I can do my work. At the end of the day, I still feel the stress level. This is dumb -.-
Somehow it feels very different tonight. I feel so awake. I guess I haven't stayed up late with such energy for quite some time. It has been so long since I last had the chace to appreciate the silence and serenity of the night.
I don't exactly like this feeling, but I guess I just need it sometimes.
And I hope everything goes well.
Monday, August 18
10:24 PM
`jon neo. ★ says :
School Today
Here I am sitting in the corner of the reading room, haha. It's kinda interesting here, quite sweet la. Two seats away there's a going-to-be-a-couple-but-don't-know-when-then-become couple. Beside me there's this ahem person smsing someoNe, HAHA. I just saw another person walking out to meet ahem, her other half? Haha. And here I am hugging my legs on the chair in the corner of the reading room listening to gallery on my ipod. There's this sweet feeling about everything here la, haha.
(:
Then again there's sth about school that irritates me. Perhaps it's the action-reaction kind of response, it's just this annoyed feeling. Haha but i know i shouldn't be, if not i would have just fell for it. I don't understand the rationale of some actions, shall i attribute it to immaturity or what. I totally don't understand, it's quite meaningless. Lol, doesn't even benefit anyone in any way. Duh, the thing is to ignore but sometimes it just hunts you. Guess I will just face it in a rational manner.
There's a reason behind every stuff that happens, every decision. Don't dimiss them, sometimes it's you that don't know. Perhaps you may just be the reason.
I have a thousand and one things to do. I don't know why i'm typin my blogpost on my phone now. (and now on my computer, it takes !@$%^& long)
Haha, bing yeow just came over and the person beside me just got fragged :D Meanwhile, the two which are two seats away are in their own world smiling away :D
That's all for now.
Sunday, August 17
8:38 AM
`jon neo. ★ says :
Tapestry and everything else
Everything came as a rush to me. Like how it came, it has gone. Tapestry was like here yesterday, now gone. Life is fulfilling like it has never been. I know my results is gonna screw up for Maths Lecture. And regardless of how much I love doing project work for 5 years of my life, I have a bad feeling about this year's.
Haha, but I'm gonna pull through all these anyway; there isn't much of a choice, is there?
I would rather sit somewhere and do nothing. Watch the skies go grey, watch the lamppost and the lonely star in the clear dark sky with one or two friends, perhaps Karlton (haha). It's a wonderful feeling to enjoy the serenity of your own world.
But reality drags you back into this world and you realise how things have to move on.
Ignorance doesn't equate to non-existance. Just because you don't see it or don't know, it doesn't mean they are not there. Don't make judgments too early, for you may regret when you learn the truth.
(Then again, what is truth?)
The space between us just keeps on growing We both know were we've been but that ain't where were going
Saturday, August 2
5:06 PM
`jon neo. ★ says :
It has been too long.
Too long since I have posted something, took a step back to look at things.
Everything has been on-the-go, moving too fast, too quickly. Many things have been a fight for credit, a fight for recognition; it's tiring. So many incidents I have witnessed, I have seen enough for people's selfishness, actions for their personal benefit - they had no intentions of sharing.
I watched on. Being the typical me, I want to do something. Do something to alter the situation. Yet you feel so powerless in front of things. In the end, the choice has to be - to ignore. To stoop to the level; why not ignore and move on. For efforts that are stolen, you know that they're rightfully yours. You tell yourself people have eyes to see. But you know in this world sometimes you don't get what you deserve, because it's about faking it and the presentation.
Now, you wonder. Forever, you don't get an answer. 'cause life has to go on and the only thing you can do is to learn to play in this world.
Haha, it has been so long since I had a break like this. Totally slept 12 hours straight from 11 to 11. One is done but there's a lot more t go.
Grades haven't been great. In fact, they are failing my expectations. They were easy to get in high school but it ain't the case in college. Not the worse, but not the best either. But this is okay for me 'cause this isn't the life I wanted since the start of this year. I don't want to study my two years away in college; I wanna keep the things coming. I wanna do more, I want to stretch to the limit.
Studying is important but they aint everything. Grades are important but they are just nothing. In the big picture, tests and examinations are judgements of ability and understanding. Grades are supposed to be reflective of them but you know they aint complete. Does getting an A fulfils one's life? It doesn't. Still, complaining about grades is useless. The only way to show who's king is to beat it at its own game.
Many things are important in life and they always vary in levels of importance over time. This is my belief and it's up to you to perceive.
Some time next year I shall take a good break. To prepare afresh for the big one coming at the end of year.
Till then, we shall see.
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PROMOS ARE COMINGGG IN 6 WEEKS TIME? OR 7 WEEKS? HAHA.
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