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Life is as good as it can be. Not. Next week will be the busiest week in 2009. I foresee it's gonna be worse than A levels.

Darn it.

There seems to be no one to hear me out.

Wednesday, January 28
9:25 PM

`jon neo. ★ says :

When you are too bothered by how others view you, you somehow forget how you even actually look.

That's the whole thing I learnt from fuyo. Even before going to the competition.
I can't be myself when I'm carrying this heavy responsiblity of going for a competition. But that's something I have to learn as well.
During selections and now. Compared to. The 1 hr after selections and when I was in Scotland.

The difference between flying and being grounded.

Subconscious vs conscious.

Soul vs mind.

Monday, January 26
1:31 PM

`jon neo. ★ says :

人好不代表好欺负。

2:22 AM

`jon neo. ★ says :

He wants to burn the floor.

Feels like he can fly with the new pumas.

Friday, January 23
12:43 AM

`jon neo. ★ says :

Keeping it real. I don't understand how so many people can live each day without doing so. What's the point, really.

Sometimes I feel like I'm just there to fill up gaps and holes when required. My existence holds no real signifiance at all.

Happy Chinese New Year (:

Wednesday, January 14
12:37 AM

`jon neo. ★ says :

Sometimes I think that my thoughts tend to be socialist in nature.

Sunday, January 11
10:04 PM

`jon neo. ★ says :

Tell me how can the scriptwriter work when the whole crew wants to change the storyline at their own will every now and then.

I'm starting to question the role of the scriptwriter.

Saturday, January 10
3:43 AM

`jon neo. ★ says :

I just typed a whole chunk of words and it disappeared.

There is a fruit tree fresh made with pure squeezed juice apple & aloe vera juice drink with crunchy aloe vera bits with vitamins b1, b6, c selected from the finest & juiciest harvest in front of me now.

Yay.

Tuesday, January 6
1:19 AM

`jon neo. ★ says :

Living in so much laughter, I wonder what it really means to be happy.

12:40 AM

`jon neo. ★ says :

Omg, I'm 18 soon.

Woohoo, it's 2009 alr. Sometimes I'm in quite a disbelief to see how fast time has passed and how we're all growing up and changing. To remember how high I was about jc orientation 1 yr back right now. Haha, so fast, so quick and it's now gone.

What a year 2008 was. So so so many things happened. When I look back at my blogposts months back, I laugh at myself and wonder how much I changed and how much I didn't.

How...
I approached my first day of JC life with mixed feelings.
I first met my OG23.
We totally thrashed the rest of the OGs during the games.
Athena owned during war games (not forgetting how violent girls can really become)
I came into 08S60 (compound angles)
I took up breaking and ended up in MAD (and joined huangcheng as well)
We practised for Aphelion Nite 08 Alumni item
I spent 4 days in Victoria Theatre with the rest of my huangcheng light mates
We started practising for dance night as well
We spent the days in reading room to mug for blocks
I screwed up for blocks and got U for chem :/
We prepared for inspire performance in a week
Stay till late every day in school (or classrooms) to study for promos
Prepare for project work WR and OP (like siao)

How things begun. How things came to an end.

For so long, I don't know why I try to think and reason so much. 'cause some things do not have reasons to why they happen. Things just happen. And even if you manage to reason and whatever, so what? Everything's gonna be the same. It's not like you can change the world if you try to reason your way out. Everything's gonna stay the same.

2008 has come and gone. It's 2009 now. But how I wished I could return to 2007. Really. Haha, so much about numbers. And the world's gonna end in 2012 (yayness, HAHA. Go youtube it.).

So many things, so many things. I want my serenity.

But I know it's not gonna come anyway.

Wlao life sucks eh. Really seh.