lifedocumentary

2009-12-11T12:07:00.003+08:00

Hello hello hello hello. ):

Nice field, nice wind, nice sun, nice clouds. Then? Haha

It's a small small world. What goes around, comes around. :/

2009-12-09T19:29:00.001+08:00

Everyone is going overseas. ):

2009-12-08T09:11:00.006+08:00

I have a great deal to say about clubbing. But I shan't waste my breath. A whole lot more things to 'learn' from the experience though; like those moments when you stare into space and wonder about how and why things work and how they should work.

In short, it's just waste money, waste time, waste life, waste....idk what. Something equivalent to smoking; there's probably nothing good about it other than your presumed self-gratification which, in the end, harms you anyway.

And prom is just, over. :/

Oh, I realised I like drinking vodka quite a lot.

2009-12-07T11:54:00.001+08:00

Haha, it's prom today.

('m in pe studio now.)
Reality has once again destroyed ideality. Like it always did.

2009-12-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

My prom attire can change colour at will.

HAHA, get ready for fat lace everywhere.

2009-12-05T16:34:00.001+08:00

Perfectionist. Idealist. All the same.

I envision too much of ideality.
Reality is just too far away.

2009-12-05T13:55:00.002+08:00

You know you know you know you know you know you know you know you know you know.

You don't know. ):

Lol, JC life ended. Like that.
That was freaking fast man. 'm not a student anymore.

2009-12-04T08:16:00.002+08:00

I realise why I tend to screw some things up is because I'm a left-handed right-hander, HAHA.

Meaning I do stuff like slinging the rifle the left-handed manner, then trying to shoot with my right-hand. And I get tangled up, get into weird positions and take a long time to get into the proper stance which others can naturally get into.

Yeahh, zzz.

2009-12-03T23:11:00.003+08:00

HI WORLD.

I disappeared for the past 2 1/2 days to go for some Mindef internship thing at... (there were so many venues I don't know which one to pinpont). Went to fly in helicopters from one part of Singapore to another. Chiong a bit of buildings in some urban combat situations. Eat 10 meals in two days (HAHA). See a lot of army personnel, hours after hours after hours. Come to know how freaking much a pilot earns, you feel like slapping them. And a lot of other random stuff.

But perhaps something there are a few things that strike me the most throughout the entire programme. Nothing to do with the programme, SAF scholarships or what-so-ever. Probably very random and off-tangent stuff to the actual event.

That's me uh. Always focusing on the nitty-gritty details, and coming up with my assessment based on my perspectives.

Anyway, to talk about the more noble stuff first. I can really feel the sense of pride of being in the army when you look at those videos when they engage in combat or take part in disaster relief efforts. Goosebumps coming up. Could feels tears in your eyes. (okay might sound retarded to some people but...) That's the pride I have lah. The sense of purpose and belief I hold for things that I value. Maybe it's the 4 years in NPCC. I feel a sense of pride when I hear the national anthem, see the national flag, etc.

I may not take up a SAF scholarship or be interested in a military career. But, definitely I feel purposeful for that cause lah. Though sometimes it's been so propaganda-ified. Don't have to keep telling me I have to love the country, you know. I loved and love the country, HAHA.

Kk that aside, 'm quite sian by the way they have to keep emphasising how much they treasure talent to the extent where they become elitist. Not only to be elites, but be elitists. Know the difference right? Maybe it's me. But I hate people who are stuck with that idea of the 'best' people, the 'not so best' people, the 'okay' people. I don't believe in such things. I don't think people should be ranked. Not in the 'manual' sense at least. I believe the society will sort it out by itself. Probably Singapore cannot afford to have that kind of time to self-sort. No time. Efficiency is the word over here.

Need to train fitness for NS. If not, I will be damn horrible when I go in. Cannot let my 1/4 natural fitness go to waste like that.

And...'m really sleep now. Though it has been real fun.

2009-11-30T11:45:00.002+08:00

我不知道。

Aiya, nevermind.

听不到 (:

会很会伪装我自己
你不该背我的秘密
沉重都给我微笑给你
奔狂奔空旷的感情
走暴走暴走的伤心
透明的叹息最後还是我的秘密

我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽小为何我的真心你听不到

2009-11-29T13:23:00.002+08:00

Black with a tinge of rainbow.

Think my prom attire is gonna be so weird. Better don't end up looking like the waiter or sth. Random mix of formal and casual wear. Puma sneakers with black long pants ftw. And I want my fedora. ):

2009-11-28T11:48:00.002+08:00

With perspectives and passion.

Onward onward.

2009-11-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

You know, roaming alone is not fun.

But I don't know why I always end up doing it.

2009-11-27T11:56:00.001+08:00

I'm damn free. I have nothing better to do.

No, actually it's not true.

2009-11-27T11:00:00.004+08:00

过云雨

天空刚下了几场雨
看街上路人不多
现在的你在做什么
还有没有在想我

快乐是否曾来过
探访我们两个
谁都不想让自己错
剩下了自己一个

找到你爱的咖啡店
尝试去感应着你
喝一杯低糖的latte
你还会想尝一口

快乐会否再来过
探访我们两个
谁都不想让自己错
剩下了自己一个

春夏秋冬
有多少人会走
春夏秋冬
有多少人会留

外面的雨下得太久
我的心感觉冷漠

2009-11-27T00:52:00.002+08:00

Prom prom prom. Go away ><

Haha.

Direction crisis. Identity crisis. Mid-life crisis. And 'm just 18. Is is true that life has to get worse as you get older? The more you understand, the more you know, the more you don't want to face all these things. It sucks; it hurts. Some times we don't even know what we are all fighting for.

Did we come into this place with a cause? I kept on losing it and 'm trying to find it back. And 'm so tired. And again, 'm just 18.

):

2009-11-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

I don't really like huge crowds.

I think I never will.

2009-11-26T10:15:00.005+08:00

Be thankful for what we have got.

It's time to get back to work. All those stuff.
Woohoo. :/

Nice song. :D

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line

2009-11-26T02:35:00.009+08:00

I read this in the afternoon but decided to post it now, anyway. I think it goes further than schooling anyone on bboy knowledge.

It has a lot of things that we all, bboys/dancers or not, should reflect upon in life. You just have to bring it out of the context of the dance and into your everyday life. Go think about it.

http://morethanastance.com/features/mf/2009/11/a-cypherside-chat-with-poe-one/

"And then the same people leading are the ones always getting attacked. “Ah, they’re wack; they think they’re dope.” It’s like, fuck. They don’t deserve that. We’re just trying to throw down. We’re just trying to break.

I think that kids need to realize what kind of effect they’re having on their own actions. Sometimes, we’re getting attacked, and when we attack back, they’re like, “Oh, they’re assholes.” … It’s kinda like, yo, you’re saying that I’m an old school style. You’re saying that I only do footwork … You’re missing the whole picture buddy. You don’t think that hurts? When I try and show you everything? So of course I’m gonna tell you back, “It’s like you crashed every single round. And oh, your moves are somebody else’s moves. And all you did was piece together in one set.”

Where’s your fingerprint? What move did you add to this game? I know what moves I added."

2009-11-26T00:33:00.003+08:00

2009-11-25T19:13:00.001+08:00

Insistence on things I don't know what for.

Ayee, why does the sky look so gloomy?

2009-11-25T14:34:00.001+08:00

2009-11-24T12:40:00.004+08:00

Maybe I'm just old already. Not good at this anymore.

Raaaaah, 'm aching like mad. ):

): I'm feeling the nothingness creeping into me again. Maybe A levels shouldn't end. For me.

2009-11-24T04:34:00.001+08:00

2009-11-23T08:32:00.001+08:00

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow